All alone...

So tonight is the first night that we will spend alone in our house since Steve's passing. While it is so quite, there is a calm in it all at the same time. I enjoyed having family around, but also knew that this all would need to take place in order for healing to begin for my family. Tonight we had a storm pass through and we heard the thunder before any rain began to fall. Spencer explained the thunder this way " it's my dad playing the drums". While it caught me off guard, it also brought some peace to me...now every time it thunders I will think of my dear, sweet husband playing the drums. He had quite the audience tonight....Spencer, Sami and Aunt Susie danced and played in the rain to his beautiful music...I took the pictures. (will add those once I find the cord..oops)

With the quiet time on my hands there are so many things that run through my head. One of them being how often times when we are married that we don't share the good things that our spouses do for us...we often complain what they did or didn't do...which often gives off the wrong perspective of the person that we truly love and admire. Why do we do that? Is it because if we say that our spouse put the kids to bed, made dinner, did the laundry or various other little tasks that it comes across as bragging? I know that Steve knew that I loved him with all my heart, but if there is one thing that I could go back and undo, it would be the times that I would complain about Steve when I was frustrated. I wish I would have bragged about him a little more often. You see I truly don't know of a more loving and devoted husband and father than Steve. He truly put us first above everything else and I didn't always see that and for that I am truly sorry. So do me a favor...when you are around me...brag, --brag about your spouse, appreciate all the little things that they do to try and make your life a little easier and brighter. If we stay focused on the positive think how much happier we all would be.